The Garden. Where Grace is Found in the Wilderness.

The Garden. Where Grace is Found in the Wilderness.

Almost seven years ago we started trying to grow our family.

Years began to pass, months of negative pregnancy tests were thrown to the bottom of the trash, and I found myself in my bathroom floor completely brokenhearted and so very alone after we found out, yet another, infertility treatment had failed. That moment, in the bathroom floor, was defining for me. I realized that I had wanted the gift way more than I wanted the Giver. I decided on the cold tiles that morning that He, the Giver, was enough for me.

And really it was Him that I wanted.

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"You feast. I'll Fight." (Part 2)

"You feast. I'll Fight." (Part 2)

The drive down there gave us a chance to process the events of the last few days. Our children we all safe and taken well care of, and our hearts had a second to take a deep breath. What we just said yes to, it was all heavy. It still is.

We drove straight to the beach. We unloaded the car, put way too much change in a parking meter, and walked (in the rain) to the beach. We sat there in our beach chairs, holding hands, in the rain. And it was perfect. 

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"You feast. I'll fight." (Part 1)

"You feast. I'll fight." (Part 1)

It was a Monday night at 11 PM and I was painting my sitting room dreaming with Father about making it an office. I had met with Him for years on that white couch. But as my ministry has grown, I suddenly found myself with more responsibilities. I needed a place to create, to dream, to write, and handle all.the.things.

I really needed an office. 

I started a Pinterest board several months ago, casting vision for this space. I envisioned a beautiful, feminine space with lots of white, golds, and pinks. I wanted the feel of the room to be soft and airy, but warm and cozy. I could already imagine myself wrapped up in a blanket on that white couch with my Bible, journal, and coffee. 

As I was painting the room late that Monday night, I was talking with Father asking Him to open heaven over that room. Asking Him to give me vision for the Kingdom work that would take place there. We GET to colabor with Him! Isn't that so exciting?! Because He's my Papa, I get to work in the family business! He invites us to join Him where He is working, to work alongside Him, growing His Kingdom. That's what I want more than anything. My family, this blog, my speaking, my writing, my local ministry, I want it all to step into what He's already doing and work alongside Him. Every bit of it is His. Even a tiny thing like my office.

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