I’ve missed these keys. I’ve missed this space with you.
There are so many words, so many stories waiting to be told, swirling around deep in me that are waiting to come out. I just haven’t had the space to let them. I don’t know if you’re like this, but when things are stirring in me, most of the time words don’t immediately come. At least not words I’m ready to share with the world. They have to sit for a while, I have to get familiar with them, after we mingle a bit, then they’re ready to be released.
Honestly, I’m still not sure I have all the words. I just know I’ve missed you. So here I am, meeting you here.
I feel like I’ve stepped into a new season.
If you’re looking from afar, everything still looks the same. My little kids are growing by the moment. And I’m soaking up every minute of their little lives. Selah asks me everyday when she gets to go back to school. She thrives in routine and structure, and as hard as I try, summer doesn’t come with much of that. She dances and sings through her days, and her and Micah are always together. Her “brudder” is her best friend, and you can’t find one without the other these days.
Micah is more of a miracle than he has ever been. He’s worked so hard in therapy this summer and the only time he spends on his feeding pump is through the night, while he sleeps. Can you believe that? It’s a miracle what God’s done in him. I knew we’d eventually get here, I just didn’t dream it would be so soon. He still has his GJ feeding tube, and he’ll have it for a little while longer. But for now, he’s eating orally throughout the entire day, and that is literally a miracle. One day, we’ll just see a big scar on his belly, it’ll be the only thing left from this journey.
I’m soaking up every second of their littleness. I look back on pictures from only a few months ago, and my heart literally aches with how fast these days are slipping away from me. I want so badly to just pause time for a little while, but even then I’m not sure it would be long enough.
Our foster son came back to us a few months ago. We’re all still getting readjusted, but he’s settled right back into his place in our family just fine. And my little kids have their brother home again. Things are hard and sweet. Heart wrenching and beautiful. Messy but full of hope. So much is happening in his case, and oh how I wish I could share all of it and his sweet face with you.
On the outside, things look much the same, even as they did last summer. But everything has changed inside of me. I’m not the same girl I used to be, not even the same girl I was a few months ago. I’ve stepped into something new with God, a deeper place in His heart, and it has been everything. Roots have exploded underneath. And things that have been so hidden for so long are starting to sprout tiny roots. It's so incredibly exciting!
Our word for this year was harvest, remember? Although we’re certain we haven’t seen the full harvest, we’re seeing it’s buds. And after seeing a pile of dirt for so long, a little bit of green is just the encouragement we need for us to continue.
"And don’t allow yourselves to be weary or disheartened in planting good seeds, for the season of reaping the wonderful harvest you’ve planted is coming!" Galatians 6:9 TPT
Speaking of harvest, The Garden, is continuing to grow. We became an official non-profit, 501(c)3 at the beginning of the summer. We have now seen 34 pregnancy/babies since last summer! Isn’t that wild? It seems crazy, but really it’s normal. We’re building a culture of miracles, because our Father is the God of miracles. If you are local and need encouragement through your journey of infertility, infant loss, miscarriage or adoption, we sure would love to have you. We’re about to kick off our fall series and have lots of exciting things planned.
My speaking calendar is filling up for the Fall and Spring, which I love. I feel like I come alive when I speak! You know when you’re doing something you just love, it gives you energy? I’d love to come to you! You can find more information here.
I’ve been working all summer, stamping new products in my shop. If you haven’t taken a look lately, you can check it out here. There is some new, really cute stuff!
I’ll just be soaking up these last few weeks with my babies before they go back to school. Of course, we’ve finally got a rhythm, and it’s time to change now. Isn’t that the way it tends to work? Selah will be going to 4k (hold me while I cry) three days a week and then our foster son will be in third grade this year (send homework help). But for now, we’re enjoy slow mornings and relaxed bedtimes. If you’re not following me on Instagram, Micah shows up in most of my stories. Because um, he’s attached to me at the hip. And (most of the time) I’m not mad about it.
Also, Brandon and I celebrated 10 years of being married this June! Can you believe that? Does that make me old? I know it’s mushy, but I love him now more than ever. Our marriage is nothing like it was when we started, it's more of a dream, something I never dreamt it would be. The Father has taken us together, to places in Him we've never been. We’re sneaking off next week, without kids, to the Bahamas to celebrate. Our plan is to do nothing but drink fruity drinks and read books and eat a lot. I’m sure I’ll be posting updates of our trip over on Insta.
This space has changed so much over the years, as have I. But I would love for you to let me know in the comments below what you would like to see here more! Also, our FB live chats will resume again this Fall. I’d love to hear what you want to chat about too!
Thank you, friend, for following along. You mean so much to me. You know that, right? Cause it's true.