Thoughts On Giving and a Small Christmas {A Guest Post}

Thoughts On Giving and a Small Christmas {A Guest Post}

When Jessica asked me to write this article for her blog, the words immediately poured out. But something still didn't feel quite right. I guess my hope is that it doesn't seem superficial. Because my point is not that gifts are what Christmas is about. Clearly. But these simple ways of keeping it small are how we keep Christ at the center because we are still able to give and don't leave Christmas feeling spent, exhausted and wondering how we will make it to the next paycheck.

As 2016 draws to a close, I am thankful. My friends that have experienced great loss can say they are thankful and we can, too. Because our joy is not found in material things or the happiness on our kids' faces Christmas Day. Our true joy is found in Jesus Christ alone for He is our Redeemer.

"Through Jesus’s sacrifice, we are granted redemption. He took the wounds we deserve, and we receive the blessing that was rightfully His." @shereadstruth

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Oh, Just Nesting

Oh, how I've missed you!

I'm sorry for my absence. Things have been real crazy around here, but I haven't stopped praying for you! I never dreamed this space on the internet would become a place of community and friendship. I love it! And want it to continue to grow into something beautiful. I love meeting you here, and even more, love hearing from all of you and the stories God is writing in your sweet families. I can't tell you how honored I am that you would take time out of your busy life, to look into mine.

My husband's coworker told him, "Can you please tell your wife to write something that I won't cry when I read?" Bahahaha! The truth is, I feel so silly writing about our lives, because I don't feel as if ours is any different from yours. But, I share the deep parts of my heart with you, so I might as well share some nursery projects, right?

So the last two weeks have been super crazy!

1) Our WHOLE family got the flu. Wait for it...

the STOMACH FLU!!!!!! And it wasn't all at once, we each had it within days of one another. Right as Brandon was getting better, Selah got it. Right as she was getting better, it hit me with a vengeance. So I called my mama for reinforcements, because that's what you do when you can't get off the bathroom floor. And you have a one year old that opens EVERY cabinet in your house and enthusiastically throws all the contents of the cabinet in the floor. Needless to say, YaYa saved the day, I'm 11 pounds skinnier, and have an empty bottle of Thieves essential oils. Thankfully, the flu is gone... until next year. 

2) I went to Savannah, GA last weekend with one of my best friends to celebrate her upcoming wedding this summer. I met some really sweet girls and had a blast! It's so hard to leave my baby, but when I got down there and ate every meal without someone (ahem) harassing me for my food, I really enjoyed myself. And probably gained back the weight I worked so hard to loose. Ha.

I loved getting to know those girls. Everyone has a story, whether they are willing to share theirs or not. I love seeing the Father's way of pursuing us through each of our lives. And at just the right time, when we let our walls down with one another, we connect. And it's beautiful. I had a lovely weekend. And was reminded all the more why I cherish my friend!

3) I have been working like a mad woman on a writing project! :) YAY!!!! Every spare second (that I normally use to blog) I have been working on this project to meet the deadline. It has been my first "real" project and hopefully the start to many more. I hope to be able to share it with you pretty soon. I'm already praying for the eyes and hearts who will read those words. I love to love on women in this way! It's my favorite.

I've also been hard at work stamping necklaces! Adoption is not cheap, so this has been God's way of providing for us. I love how He does that!

4) We have about SIX more weeks until we add a new Satterfield to our family! I CANNOT believe it. I keep thinking, "This isn't real, this can't be true, it's not going to happen." At this point with Selah, only our VERY close friends and family knew about her, at least until papers were signed. Which is normally a very good idea in the adoption world. However, his little situation is very different, and we have been assured that "This is very real, it's very true, and it's really going to happen. So get ready." I can't wait to tell you the whole story. More to come on this...

So...you know how when you plan a wedding, it's much easier to focus more on preparing for the wedding than it is the marriage? Well, I feel the opposite with this little guy. With Selah, I was a new mom. I had no earthly idea what I was doing. Luckily, I babysat a TON in high school and college. But let's be real, that doesn't compare to being someone's mommy. And like I said earlier, we weren't even positive we would come home with her. I was busy trying to decide whether or not I should buy girl things just in case the adoption failed. I was preparing more for bringing her into our home than in our hearts. Just because I had never felt that feeling- the feeling of being someone's mommy.

This time, I have prayed more for God to prepare our hearts as we welcome him home, than I have been preparing our home for him. Our schedule will drastically change. Selah will no longer have every ounce of our attention. Brandon and I will have to learn again, who we are as a couple to TWO children. And we will have the enormous responsibility to love, shepherd, and teach Jesus to one more heart. It's not that I am not as excited as I was to bring home Selah. I am SOOOOO excited to have another set of squishy cheeks to kiss (and yes, he already has her same exact cheeks)!

But shepherding hearts is way heavier than deciding the perfect bedding. This time, I know.

I know the love I will feel for him. I know what every hour of the night will look like. I know that it will take some

time for him to become mine

. I know how tired I will be, but I also know the beauty of this thing called motherhood. And all those years of

longing and waiting

, make it even more beautiful.

So... because I have a one year old AND I

work full time

, I am just now getting around to preparing his nursery. We decided to move Selah to the bigger room upstairs and he would take the nursery closest to our room. In other words, I'm crazy. I am getting two rooms finished in less than six weeks.

I am NOT a DIY girl. I know this is awful. I really wish I was! But I had rather pay someone to do little projects or had rather buy them that way to begin with. Time seems to never be my friend, ever. However, I have a precious friend who is a crazy good thrifter, and she is AH.MAZ.ING,

Restless Arrow

, go on over there and follow her blog. Seriously, she's the cutest, and I wish she could just come and take over my house! In planning the nursery and redoing Selah's room, I am trying to take

The Nester's

advice and not be scared about making nail holes in the wall, and learning that "it doesn't have to be perfect to be beautiful."

Hold on...quick side note. Last October, when I went to

Allume,

I had no idea who The Nester was. Amber (Restless Arrow) and I walked in late to one of her family's sessions. A real cute girl pulled up a chair for me beside her and I immediately noted how lovely she smelled. (I just notice things like this about people. Weird, I know.) So I leaned over to Amber and said, "Okay, so who is this Nester person?" And ever so quietly she said, "The girl sitting beside you." Turns out after the session was over, I told her how lovely she smelled and asked what perfume she wore. When I told this story to my husband later, he was mortified. But, I left that session wearing THE Nester's perfume. Because she shared it with me. And she is nice. And really cute. And she hugged me when she met me. And that meant so much to me because I'm a hugger too.

Anyways, all that to say, I'm trying to be crafty and stylish in my decorating these two rooms like my friend. But I'm not that kind of girl, so when I show you after pictures, just pretend, okay?

This has to be the most random post I've ever written. I'm not growing a human, but I definitely have something that resembles pregnancy brain. Or I'm just really tired. Either way, I'm just nesting over here like a maniac. Cleaning, washing clothes, buying gold deer antlers. Preparing our home for this new little soul, but more than anything, asking Daddy to prepare our hearts. Will you help me pray for that?

I've learned this about Him- no matter what circumstances I find myself in, they have something to say about Who He is. So now, in this exciting, crazy time, I'm enjoying more than ever, knowing Him. I can't wait to explore a new side of Him during this little guy's coming home to us.

And I can't wait to see what the nursery turns out like, deer antlers and all.