We binge watch Netflix after our kids go to bed like every other good parent does. Our favorite fictional character, Harold (from Persons of Interest), put so perfectly into words the state of my heart at the end of every month,
"Hope is painful."
It's been almost a year now, since I've felt the nudging from Jesus to stretch out my withered hand (or barren womb) and let Him heal me. Stretching out my withered hand means admitting that I really want healing. That I'm not okay with spending the rest of my life with a body that doesn't work the way God intended. Stretching out my withered hand means that I am vulnerable at the end of every month and most of the days between.