Full Not Busy

Full Not Busy

It’s been quiet around here lately.

I’m so sorry about that.

Do you ever feel like you can't balance your life? Or is it just me? Surely it’s not just me. It’s like I’m an awesome mom and tanking the ministry thing, or I’m writing and not speaking, or visa versa. Either my legs are shaved or my hair clean. And don't get me started about house. If the dishes are done, the laundry probably isn’t. Know what I mean?

I’ve chosen in this season to use the word “full” instead of “busy.” I feel like being busy is just running around without intention and lacking purpose. Full describes our season much better. Everything that our family is doing is intentional and filled with purpose. It just means we have to give our very best yes. And a lot of “no’s” along the way too.

Every morning when I wake up, I ask the Father, “What do you want me to put my hands to today?” Sometimes I work on The Garden all day. Somedays I only work on stamping jewelry. Somedays I just need to play in the floor with my kids or go on a date with my life crush. It’s been something I’m definitely growing in, yet learning what it looks like to live in this full season of life out of a posture of rest.

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Close the Door and Fall in Love

God has given me this burning passion to love on women. Whether I am writing, speaking, leading a Bible study in my living room, or drinking coffee across from a sweet soul, this is my calling. I’ve floundered around for a few years with how to get started, let’s be honest; I still feel I’m floundering. But God has said to walk forward and that’s what I’m doing.

Last October, I went to a Christian women’s blogging conference called,

Allume

. It was my second time attending and I was expecting big things from the Lord. I wasn’t sure what He would do, but the posture of my heart the whole weekend was open hands. I expected to receive lots of practical things to help grow this blog, increase followers, and reach more hearts. My deepest desire for this space and ministry in the future is Psalms 52:9, “For what you have done I will always praise you in the presence of your faithful people. And I will hope in your name, for your name is good.”

Instead, I came home from that weekend with a simple task from Him, “Close the door, Jessica. Take time to heal, and fall in love with Me.”

And that’s what I’ve done.

It has been beautiful. And hard.

Writing has always been a way I process things, and when the Lord asked me to close the door for a while, I wasn’t sure exactly what He meant by that. I realize it’s been some time since you’ve heard from me, but it doesn’t mean I haven’t been praying for you, sweet reader.

I’ve been learning so much lately about what it means to embrace suffering, rather than resisting, and wishing it away. Behind closed doors, in the secret of my time with Him, I’ve been learning more about who I am in Him and just crazy He is about me. He’s been training my heart to live more fully in my identity as His daughter. And His Spirit has been poured out in fresh new ways in my life.

So I realize there hasn’t been much traffic around here lately, but I want you to know that what He has been doing in me, I’m praying for Him to do in you.

So dear friend, thank you for following along. I cherish you and love each pair of eyes reading these words. You are a blessing to me.

The beginning of Spring is always filled with new promise. Lots of new things to come!

I'd love to know what He's been doing in you!