She turned five today. Five.
Five whole years loving a miracle. Five whole years of so much joy. Five whole years of being a mama.
Five feels hard. I say this every year, but for real. She might as well be driving. Hold me, Jesus. She’ll go to KINDERGARTEN next year. I can’t take it.
I bought these ornaments a few months ago, hoping that this was the year.
That I could wrap them up and give them to my husband and mom, and when they would unwrap them, they would be unwrapping a miracle. The one we’ve been praying now for eight years. I know healing is my inheritance because of Jesus. He paid such a high price for me to be healed. I know more than ever that truth, and that we will see that healing manifest.
I was just really wanting it to be this year.
You know those people you meet and your hearts immediately connect? That’s what happened with my friend, Caroline. Her words are filled with so much life and her faith stokes and blows oxygen on mine, fanning the flame for the impossible in my own story. She has become to me a dear friend, and I’m so honored to share this space with her today. I know her words will encourage and challenge your heart as they have mine.
Impossibilities for most are a topic that often goes untouched. But for me? It’s something I think about every day. My husband and I were given a 0% chance of conceiving on our own. 0%. But you know what I love about God? He loves to take an impossible situation, like mine, and creates the environment for a miracle to take place. Because our impossibility has to do with birthing children, I won’t just get to birth the impossible in the spiritual realm, but in the physical realm too. How amazing is that?
You see myself, and perhaps you too, aren’t the first to face the impossible. It was common throughout every generation before us, including throughout the Bible too. And the amazing thing about the couples who went through impossible situations, specific to infertility, is every barren women in the Bible conceived. Hannah and Sarah contended even though they were barren. Mary, although not barren, birthed a child through supernatural conception. There is also Rebekah, Elizabeth and the unnamed wife of Manoah who had children. I don’t know what their diagnosis was and I don’t know what percent chance they had to conceive, but I assume like myself they had days where they felt defeated and hopeless, yet they too conceived a child.
Their children were birthed out of barren wombs.